There is a video at the end that goes with how I feel at this moment.

Tentative Title: Hope Descends
When the darkness descends upon me and folds me in it's dark cloak, hope is not known
weariness sets in my bones
Sleep is my only solace
Nightmares draw near
Grey clouds fall upon me
My sighs are like a mournful ballad
Life is not an option
The oblivion of an eternal sleep would be as a balm upon my soul
Tears rain down on me
Staining my cheeks
Chain-smoking
Restless
Irritable
‘Leave me be’ is my cry
Dreary, painful
This life is not acceptable
Thoughts and plans of ending me
Too many thoughts, racing
Oppressed by dark, cold days
Unbearable heat, brown grass
Locusts singing
Burning without flame
Descending from the grey clouds, a comforter appears
Her name is Hope
She brings with her new songs
Joy
Life
Bathed in the golden nectar of the sun
Morning birdsong
Gentle breezes flow through the branches
Sparkles through tears
Roses open their fragrant petals
As hope shines on them with her new song
'patience' whispers Hope
Observe the rose
How she gently opens every morn
Revealing more of her beauty
Until finally she is open fully
Open with the rays of the sun and the soft drops of
Rain to nourish
Listen to the harmony of the day
The breeze and the birds sing a new song